Goodbye to Not Good Enough: Kicking Out the Comparison Monster

The other night I was feeling very blah. I was tired, felt like I had so much to get done and very little motivation to do it, and I just overall felt anxious and overwhelmed. I’m generally pretty upbeat and energetic, but I have my moments like everyone else. Sometimes I just want to eat something sweet and maybe cry for a few minutes. Never underestimate the power of a quick cry.

In this Eeyore-y state of mind, I decided to allow an unfortunate and annoying guest in: the Comparison Monster. Alas, I heard the Monster knocking, and I let him take a seat with me in my living room. Ugh, I hate comparing myself to other people even when I’m in the middle of doing it. I know it’s not beneficial, and I don’t like pulling up a chair for myself at any kind of pity party.

Okay, so as a new blogger and someone who started a social media account from scratch, it’s easy for me to start comparing. I see other bloggers with thousands of followers on social media and probably thousands of subscribers. I see people’s writing that goes viral or gets shared countless times. I find that I fall into the thinking of, “Well, what am I not doing?” or “What could I be doing more of?” I wonder, “Should I have more followers or more subscribers by this point?” and I feel that deep-seated, slithery fear of failure. The “What if this never…